Remember Who You Are

Depression is a difficult disorder to fight. Depression tells you lies; You’re not good enough, you’re not strong enough or important enough. Depression takes away your fight and leaves you feeling weak, sad, and alone. All in all, depression is a bitch.

Here’s the thing though…you are none of the things depression tells you that you are. You’re not alone or weak. You have people who care and you are important! You’re a fighter and you can beat this bitch called depression.

I was in a dark place not too long ago. I felt like life wasn’t worth fighting for. I was suicidal and wanted everything to end. I wanted to end the pain and the constant doubt that things could ever get better. I was a constant bag of emotions, crying over anything and everything. I couldn’t work because I couldn’t get out of bed. I could barely muster up enough energy to walk to the bathroom. I was in hell.

I took all my meds just as prescribed, went to therapy, and the psychiatrist. I was a good girl and did all the things they tell you to do in order to break free of the depression that was crippling me and slowly things took a turn. I began to notice slight changes in my mood and energy level. I began to feel like I might have a chance…That in itself was a revelation! I felt I had a chance. I felt like I could actually beat this damn disorder and become who I wanted to be.

One day I heard a song by Shawn Mendes called, “In My Blood” and I instantly felt ten feet tall. If you haven’t heard the song, give it a listen! I remembered in that moment I’m not one to give up. I’m a fighter and I can conquer this disorder. I can be happy again!

I am still slowly recovering from the depression that plagued me but I’m making strides everyday to a better life. I’m content and dare I say it, happy. So from someone who’s been so low they want to end their life to end the pain, believe me, it does get better! You must believe me and fight those voices telling you it’s a useless fight. You are a fighter and you can do this! So give it everything you’ve got and then give it just a little bit more…You can beat this little fighter and your days will be brighter!

XOXO

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